So, I´m a woman, and I hope not to sound too big headed when I say it, but an attractive woman, in my late 20´s. I´ve travelled, I´ve studied, I´ve experienced things I never thought possible. I´ve loved, I´ve lost, I´ve had my heart broken and I´ve broken other peoples hearts. I´m by no means "cool" and reached the point in my life where I am happy with the person I have become. I´ve been in a reltaionship for nearly 8 years, although it has had its ups and downs, it has mostly been ups. However.....
We are now at the "will he or won´t he" stage...you know...the point where your parents keep asking if he is ever going to ask you the big question...the point where you wonder if he does want this as much as you want him. You watch your friends, one after another have their big white wedding and then one after another have those beautfiul babies and each time you get that phonecall or email to announce their "wonderful" news - you find yourself forcing that smile more and more....
The worse thing is, you hate it. You hate yourself for being a bitch and not being excitied for them and happy for them, because this is all you want for them, but deep down you are just wanting your own happy ending so badly. You end up questioning yourself...will this ever happen to me? Will someone want me forever too?